In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.
الحمد لله , الحمد لله , الحمد لله
I am back in this space again after a short hiatus. A short hiatus, indeed. It felt short. Very, very short. Yet at the same time the experience felt a world away.
I have been... sad (again!!!???) nothing new, huh? Please, please... you may move on to another blog now... such stale news this is...
Unfortunately, yes I have been. Sad that is. And somewhat still is. One, for having to leave the holy land. And two -- that's just the way I am. Sob... sob... I can be so pathetic, I irritate me!!!
Having said that (being sad and all), I can not go on typing without saying that I am forever indebted to HIM, the Most Merciful, The Most Compassionate, The Bestower, The Most Knowing, The Protector, The Great Forgiver, The All-Knowing, The Just... The ONE for all his bounties. Alhamdulillah... for everything...
Hmmmm... now whining about my sad, sad life really sounds pathetic!!! And ungrateful!!! So, I shall not!!!
Funny, how I am feeling a little better now. Alhamdulillah!!! Praise be upon HIM!!! It's HIS M-A-G-I-C!!! Thank, you God!
I am just babbling with no real direction here! Forgive me, but it's four-something in the morning and I have been up since the last couple of hours... crying! But not anymore!!! Alhamdulillah...
The messed-up emotions could possibly be due to the medications I took to stop my period temporarily. Hormonal imbalance, yes... I'd like to think so. The red alert came gushing the moment I stepped off the plane Tues night and just a few minutes ago, right after I started typing this entry, I had a severe stomach cramp - went to the loo and gosh!!! if I was a sexually-active female, I'd think that I had a really early stage of miscarriage looking at the discharge I had!!! It's scary, ok???
And because of my menstruation, I have not been able to perform my solah, and that added to my sadness too. It makes me miss being there in the Al-Haram and Masjidul Nabawi even more. But I'll be back there, soon. I promise. Insya-Allah...
I must say that I am happy to be back home, to see my girls especially. I had started to really miss them the very last few days I was there. I should've brought them along with me. They would love it there! Soon, very very soon, ok girls? We'll go there together, insya-Allah...
(Stomach cramp again... ouch!)
Bye, for now...
Friday, June 13, 2008
الحمد لله
Posted by MHB at Friday, June 13, 2008
Labels: Allah, personal thoughts
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9 comments:
haluuuuu my dear friend....long time no hear..eh!!..
Syukur Alhamdulillah...u dah selamat mengerjakan umrah, selamat pergi n balik....
Insyaallah, ada rezqi pergi lagi k....
p/s : after a few days, i can really put a smile on my face today as i'm reading ur latest entry...welcome back..*hug*hug
ladydi dear! yes, I'm back...
when is your trip pulak? yang you nak pegi ari tu... ;-)
sure glad to be back. *hugs*
well...Insyaallah we'll be leaving on 17th July...only for 5 days to be exact...we'll meet after i come back, ok??
take care...
P/S : post la photos (umrah)...
Alhamdulillah. Somehow I knew you'd feel this way - sad and all. It's mixed feelings, I know, and it is really ok. Ok what, to irritate your own self!!! he he he...better than being irritated by some rude people on the road ke apa, ek? he he he Welcome back to the blogland!!
ladydi -- have posted a few pics... didn't take so many, mcm x appropriate je to be snapping away pics... the pics posted meant for my own keeps but since ada request ;-)... I have posted them here... enjoy!
ms hart -- ha ha ha... betol tu... u made me laugh!!!
welcome home! u r blessed. It's better to cry and remember than to laugh and forget HIM.
missed you indeed!
flowerinthedesert -- thanks for saying that. You are so right and I feel so much better after reading what you wrote!
Dear, crying is therepeutic for me. It lessens the troubles and melts the problems away, even for just a few seconds. My grandmother still cries until now of the loss of our grandfather, and he left us for more than 30 years ago. Crying is an expression of love, it occurs when you think fondly of someone, it doesn't necesarily mean sadness. People cry out of happiness too kan.
Wanna cupcake bouquet? I'll make them for you at anytime you fancy, if that would carve a smile on your face. You just have to tell me when k.
wiz -- yes, crying is a short-term measure to be relieved of what's so over-whelmingly inside you... but sometimes I try not to cry (for whatever reason) and that's when the problem starts -- when I bottle up everything inside. Nak buat macamana, sometimes nak nangis pun tak de time what's with work, the kids etc! Boleh???
You're such a dearie la... janganlah... I still feel guilty for only paying you that much RM for the time you spent on Maira's cake!
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