Changing profiles...

Tell me, which picture do you like better between the two?

I felt the urge to change my profile picture tonight for some reason. I wanted to and in some ways, I felt I needed to.

The image on the left paints such a gloomy picture. If a profile image represents who you are visually, then do I really feel like the picture on the left?

Do I want to feel like that image? And continue to feel like that?

It will be a year soon since my devastating loss, and I have mourned... oh yes, I have. Don't get me wrong - I am not about to join the party scene or anything like that - nauzubillah... but what I do want is to move forward and chart new memories without letting my loss scar my life and what lies ahead for me and my children.

I have chosen an image of a single rose to represent who I am for now. It is pale in colour - perhaps it had lost some of its tint not too long ago after a drought, but it continues to bloom...

It continues to bloom and withstand the cruel weather because it has been kindly tended to by its Creator.

Ya Allah, I thank You for all Your blessings, for looking after me.

Ya Allah, I thank You for loaning him to me and for giving me the honour to be his wife in this lifetime.

Things may not have gone according to our plans, but I believe Your plan is the best for us. You know better.

Ya Allah, please take care of my Babang and pleeeeesssseee... reunite us as one in the hereafter.

Amin...