This is how I feel inside today... God, please forgive me for feeling this way!
Misha's birthday is coming up in 10 days. My little girl will be 7, and it should be a joyous occasion, shouldn't it? But my heart is bleeding... it would be her first birthday without her daddy.
Her birthday is on 3 Feb, but we have agreed to celebrate it on 8 Feb to take advantage of the long Chinese New Year holiday. Misha has listed the things she wants for her do - a poolside beach-themed party and a pinata. She and her sister Maira have been creating birthday invitation cards on Microsoft Publisher for the past week.
I feel guilty for not feeling as enthused.
February is a month of sorts for me. First, there's Misha's birthday, then there's 14 Feb where Zamri & I got engaged to be married and then there's 21 Feb... it would mark a year since...
My heart bleeds...
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Feeling gloomy...
Posted by MHB at Thursday, January 24, 2008
Labels: emotions, personal thoughts
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Tina: You posted on my blog. www.ajourneywelltaken.wordpress.com
I'm so very sorry for your loss! I know words can't cover or lessen the grief, but I have been there and I know what you're going through. Do you have a friend or family that can help you with the party, perhaps set it up and supervise it for you, while you just enjoy celebrating another birthday with your beautiful, healthy child? elaine
Hi Elaine, thank you for your comment. Yes, I will have help for the party - that will not be a problem. What I'm struggling with is my own feelings. The need to break out of my mourning. I need to tell you that I have been doing my fair share to get out of it - going out for movies with girlfriends and such, taking the girls for a picnic and the theme park, but the feeling of sadness just hits you when you're not looking. Like now. it's part of the process. Going through the blues... hope to get out of it soon enough. Thanks, Elaine...
Ya Allah,
Tolonglah berikan kekuatan semangat, kesabaran, dan kebahagian kpd Tina, Maira and Misha utk face kehidupan dgn lebih tenang, gembira & of course, penuh keberkatan.
Amin.
Love..Lin.
Amin... thank you Lin, sama-sama kita cari keredhaanNya...
Thanks for being a great friend.
Salam..
Baru hari ini i baca blog u ( i tau blog u ni dari blog EFS).
Semoga u tabah menghadapi dugaan hidup ini. I percaya, u, Maira & Misha cukup kuat mengadapinya. Insya Allah.
Assalamualaikum myheartbleeds @ Tina.
KakChik dtg ke sini slps Tina (can I call you with that name?) tinggalkan mesej kat KeluargakuSayang.
Sebenarnya KakChik dtg pun sb tertanya2 dengan nickname tu yg bunyinya sgt sedih. Dan rasanya KakChik dah tau sebabnya.
KakChik bangga dpt berkenalan dgn seorang Muslimah yg cukup tabah membesarkan anak2 w/pun tanpa suami di sisi. Semoga Tina dan anak2 akan berbahagia dan sentiasalah mendekatkan diri dgn Allah SWT dan kawan2 yg soleh agar diri kita terus kuat meneruskan kehidupan.
Wassalamualaikum.
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